I thought I was doing ok with all this so-called "down-sizing" and losing our house and everything. Until Sis came home tonight and told me she needed $125 for soccer. Then all this money stress we've been going through came up and hit me smack in the face. I don't have it. I don't know when I'll have it. She may as well asked me for a million dollars at this stage of the game.
Then I went in the bedroom and cried for 15 minutes. Because I can't afford to pay for all the stuff my kids need, and because we lost our flippin' house, and because I have 2 jobs that pay crappy wages, and because Christmas is coming, and I think I officially hate Christmas now. What kind of attitude is that?
Lots of deep breathing followed this pity party, and nothing really changed. I just have to keep pulling myself up by the bootstraps and plug along, and hopefully, hopefully things will get better.
Sigh....money stinks.
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I'm so sorry, Moody. I definitely feel your pain. If it's any consolation, I've been pretty tearful over finances lately, too. And I'm thinking we'll have to move to a new house, or probably an apartment, soon as well.
So I'm sorry!
It's not easy at all- I'm so sorry you've lost your house! It's one thing to talk about the true meaning of Christmas, and another to be forced to lose all "distractions."
We're kind of looking at our current situation as camping over here... meanwhile I tell myself, "You've got a wonderful family, and you've got the gospel. At least something good has already happened this year, huh?"
I hope for you, too. Things will get better.
I totally understand about money being tight. Perhaps you could looking into grants to help pay for sports - I know that is how I got my oldest into baseball this last year.
Christmas shouldn't be about buying things but spending time with friends and family and enjoying the true meaning of Christmas - "Christ's Birth" and what that means for us.
I have a large extended family and I am doing the homemade thing again this year and we even made our own Christmas cards this year because we just can't afford to do the photo cards I normally do. It's been a great way to get the kids more involved in the holiday.
I have a phrase that I say over and over in my mind when I am feeling down about our predicament: "I'm never given more then I can handle - even if I think I can't handle it."
((HUGGS))
I am so sorry you are going through this. Reading about how you are stressed but trying so hard and working two jobs. I have been there and I know it is hard, we have been down to our last few dollars and not known what would happen when always something would pull us through. But, I am not just saying this to make you feel better-- if you will let me I want to help. Please email me if you have a paypal account, so that I can help out with your daughter's soccer cost. I really am serious. There have been times others have helped us and I would like to be on the other side of the giving this time.
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